I'm so happy because ive finally been able to leave food on my plate!
I know it wasnt alot left but it was somthing!!!
so i havnt felt so stuffed afterwards,I know sorry the picture is abit gross but i was just so happy i didnt binge that i took an "after" pic too :)
okok right i have HAVE to ask this, do any of you girlies bloat at all? i dont think im ever not bloated.. infact i wake up bloated, i dont eat wheat or dairy, eggs or meat and i kno nuts do it to me but like so does anything and iv tried soo many tablets but it dosnt stop its so irriating and dosnt make me want to keep eating which is making my gaining weight hard blegh, ideass?
Angie at work gave me some beetroot and i took it home and stuffed my tofu with it and baked it, it gave it a realy unusual fragrance and texture but not at all un plesent, i realy enjoyed it :)
I had a kiwi and apple and pear fruit spread sandwich on rye toast the other day, i paired this with a bag of vege crisps, still soo proud of myself for this, been a major fear food for my crisps, but seriously.. was there any point putting them in the bag look how empty it is! haha
This is at work, banana and strawberry jam toasted rye bread sandwich :)
P your seposed to be WORKING!!!
LIKE OMG seriously ive felt so crap the last two days, iv got a tummy bug :( and so its made my weight drop again...GREAT :/ JUST what i need!..NOT ergh
i didnt eat too much yesterday because it wasnt spending too long hanging around my body gross, but i had a vegan choloate bar :) was realy proud of myself but my family didnt realy seem to care? thanks mum
omg she had the biggest go at me and was like "stop it just stop it and be normal" seriously its not like i can control this? i kno full well that ive relapsed of late but shes trying to send me back the the priory and i realy hated it there, i hated the fat tube they stuck into my tummy and the scar still looks rough now, soo hard having to explain it to people!
she told me that the "vegan blogs i look on are all anti eating so they have brainwashed you" and i shouted sooo bad, 1. i got ana at 13 so its not like i got it of a blog? and 2. evryone in the blog world are amazing (your all so helpful and friendly !!) im going to show her one 1day to prove to her..
This was in costa on saturday, i wasnt feeling too bad at this point, but walking around town was NOT COOL FOR MY TUMMY!!
it was blackcurrant tea which i had with a peach chunked alpro soya yoghurt, my youngest sister kibby took the pic (slyly aparently so that *she didnt look like a twat*) i was happy because its the first none water drink to drink out!!!
this was a dress i bought whilst in southampton shopping, its realy weird and funky so i thought why not? lol, it actally has the same front circular design style as the top im wearing in the costa picture has on it,new obsession maybe?
apricot jam with mashed heated banana and soy butter on two slices of roasted sunflower seed rye bread, actually maybe it was the jam that made me sick as it says it maybe has wheat frucose syrup in it? ah idk if thats enough jam (and in my porridge) to make me ill? OMG PPEA SHUT UP U HAVE A BUG IT ISNT YOUR FOOD MAKING YOU ILL!!!
this sandwich (with a blueberry soy yoghurt was amazing)
rasberry jam and peanut butter on wheat free rice toast
vegan haggis? wheat free food? omg are you for real oh holy foody goodness! :) this is for my early easter family dinner next saturday, the day before my mum goes to kenya for 10 dayss but i thought id show u the haggis now :p because i was happy
These are only a few of the things i bought the other day :) i will post the rest next time as im sure im starting to bore you now!
these boots are soo comftable!they work realy well with my skinny jeans tucked in
my dog izzy dosnt seem too impressed though ;)
this is what i took a picture of in the changing room, its abit weird yes but totally me and i love the purple top lovee it, it looks the same size as the dress but only because i zoomed in, its actually tiny and so cute, looks weird but on it looks alot better, il take a pic when i finally wear it
defently a sandwich post this one isnt it? haha, this is vegan creamcheese and herb/chive on my rye toast and grapes, was a great combo, with a blueberry yogzz
ima go to sleep now as my tummy is doing the washing machine on skitzo spin mode
tomorrow im going to start my weight gaining diet as i havnt realy been focused on it. i was more like "binging to put on weight but being sick so i didnt?" its fucked up because i kno i need to gain but i still dont want to, :( mehh
made a new blog top when i finally got my illustrator working again
ok seriously im going now
STOP BLEEPING TYPING
sorry pea ;)
*she stops talking to herself*
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